Wednesday 10/1/08

We bought a double jogger and we ran outside for the 1st time as a family! I struggled through my 6.5 miles Monday, but I got it in finally. I realized I struggled so much, b/c I was running 100.4 temp. Tonight even with 100 temp we went for my 30-40 min run. It was good to be outside.

I plan to run my 3 days at least (1 long run 2 30-40 min runs atleast) plus I plan to walk atleast 4 miles everyday as well. I am VERY excited to have the freedom to get off the tredmill.

Yesterday was my crosstrain day, b/c I had the fever I just didn't have it in me to get on the tredmill....so I did a kick boxing video. WoW am I sore...even though it was actually easy. I guess it combined with the weights I've been doing made me sore.

I hope eventually all this work will pay off. I LOVE being "too thin." I feel safe there and I feel very thin is beautiful. Yes, some would think that is sick, but I definetly do not.

I probably will have to get very strict with my diet...October should be easier to do that. The husband will be gone the entire month including 2 weekends. Yes, he likes to eat and he always wants me to eat, too.

WOW it's been a while since I posted. My uncle died 2 days after that post, once we got through the funeral and all my daughter started preschool again. Then we went on a little trip. I have been running about 1 5miles a week, except the week we were on vacation. We walked SOOOO much that week that I think I was fine to skip running. I was also carrying 40 lbs of child atleast half the time I was walking on that vacation.

I realized Tonight I have 12 weeks to go until the 1/2 marathon and my training was supposed to be 17 weeks. I forgot to start official training! I have skipped 2 or 3 of the first weeks and I am skipping next weeks run, b/c it's very small. I am jumping to the 5 th week where my long run is 6.5. I ran 5.25 straight tonight, so surely somehow I can manage...even if I have to walk a bit.

I don't really know about my weight. I stopped weighing. It drives me CRAZY...so it is better that I watch what I eat, yet eat enough to be able to run...and hope when I finish I weigh less than 120. I bought a new running outfit tonight. The running skirt is an XS so hopefully something is working.

Tuesday I start running outside. I hope I can do it. I will be pushing a jogging stroller, too which will be challenging for me. My husband is convinced if I will press on and run with a jogging stroller when I run without I will be stronger. I think if I live through pushing the jogging stroller. I will only do it on cross train days or shorter runs.

That is the news.

New Shoes

I bought new shoes finally. They are the same ones I had (Mizuno), just the new style...so they look different. I LOVED the red Brooks, I was tempted...but I heard you should go wit the shoe you notice the least. That would be the Mizuno for sure. The red Brooks were so pretty. My Mizunos are light weight and offer good support...the husband likes them, too. My run today was hard. I have stomach issues today and so it was hard...plus I had to cook supper and sit with everyone while they ate. Family supper is important and I had planned to be finished before...but the whole stomach issues didn't help.

Last week I made it to 21 miles. Today I did 5.25, so I plan to make 21 miles again this week. Next week I will try to make 25 again. Hopefully new shoes will help the legs. My old ones were shot.

Wednesday

6.25 miles I ran fir 1 hr straight then did intervals for 15 min.

Tuesday

5.25 miles today it was hard for some reason, but I did it.

Monday

Well the weekend was busy as I predicted...the in laws did come Thursday and stayed until Saturday. The husband left again yesterday at 4 am and he will be gone until Friday night. That's okay...we have plenty of cleaning and organizing and running to do. Yesterday I ran 5.25 miles. I could have done more, but I was meeting a friend for supper...That's okay. I am supposed to take this week a little easier. We'll see.

Wednesday

Well, I managed to pull it off. I ran 8.50 which should make 25.08 for the week. Now I will concentrate on vacuuming and getting the house in order before I head to the airport tomorrow. The husband is annoyed that I did that. He thinks I'm going to hurt myself. I want to maintain 5 miles a week and I didn;t have another choice. I can't run with the inlaws here...By the time they leave it'll be next week.

Tuesday

Correction on yesterday I actually did 8.08, that's where my tredmill stopped, seriously. So, today I did 8.50. I ran all of it but 3 laps. This time it cut off at 8.30 and I restarted it to finish up. I am hoping to do the same tomorrow so that I will be through and cn concentrate on getting ready for our guests Thursday. It will be hard to stay off the tredmill Thursday and Friday, but maybe I will.

Monday

I ran 8 miles today. I am planning to try to do that again tomorrow and Wednesday. This week is crazy with the in laws supposedy coming Thursday night, which means I need to clean the house really well, too.

Friday

4.30 miles for a total of 30.02 for the week :-). Now it's off to the shower and then to the airport to pick up the husband.

Thursday

1 hr straight of running again...I ran 6.62 miles for a total of 25.72 for the week. I had planned to run 4.48 tomorrow and then have supper...with my sis; however the husband is planning to catch an early flight and he'll be home anywhere from 12:30 to 3:40. aybe I'll run tomorrow night...we'll see

Wednesday

I ran an entire hour straight...no breaks to walk no water no bathroom (that's quite a feat I carried a 9 lb 7 oz baby and my bladder just never returned to normal) anyway...I did 6.54 today :) which makes a total of 19.1 so far this week. I am tempted to go for 30 miles this week...but I don't want to make that goal. I want to keep my goal at 25 miles and any extra is just extra. I am afraid if I go for 30 than I will continue wanting to go for 30 every week...and I am just not sure that is an attainable goal.

If anyone actually reads this and reads my real blog you will know I had used a book to follow a certain plan to get "ripped" The problem with that book is that according to the website I should be 127 (which is 17 pds heavier than I like). So, in that book I wore myself ou doing these workouts, that I knew better than to do. They involved running on an incline of 15...which only builds muscles in your legs and behind....which is NOT the look I am going for. I like the long lean look, not the muscley stalky look that can happen when you're 5'4. I highly recommend the book and I will probably do it again after I lose weight. I will likely leave out the exercises that build muscles in the legs and thighs and behind. The book also opened my eyes more to what we ingest daily. Preservatives and chemicals that are in food just amaze me and we ACTUALLY ingest that and allow our children to ingest that junk!!! I had already had a rule of no hotdogs and cokes and chips...and only occasional cookies. Now I view all foods cautiously. I would love to grow a garden so we could have fresh foods on hand. My dad had a garden closer to a farm when I was little and it was so cool. All summer we would swim and when we got hungry we'd grab a peach or a plum off the tree or head to the garden to eat carrots or onions. It was awesome. Things have changed. It seems we're so busy running all the time no one has time to spend on a large garden.

Anyway, that is my spill for the day. I wonder what I will run tomorrow and Friday.

YAY!

When I weighed mid day today without clothes I was 124.8 :-) 9.2 pds to go!!!! I hope I keep losing 2 pds a week!!!!

Tuesday

6.30 miles for a total of 12.56 so far this week. Also, I weighed with my clothes off (they're usually off) and I was 125. Todays run was REALLY hard for me...I don't know if it was just mental or what but I was exhausted and I had to push myself.

Weight

I weighed mid day and I way 125. I am just glad I lost something, b/c I ate alot compared to what i think I should. I am still hopeful that I will be 115 by my birthday in 8 weeks!

Monday

6.26 miles

Friday

I ran 4.78 which makes a total of 27.03 miles for the week. The husband noticed how I am looking and just as I've told him he LOVES me all skinny...he was all over me and publicly affectionate. He thinks I'm too skinny when I get where I like, yet he is much more handsy....men! Kind of like the line "I don't like girls who wear makeup" Yet the girl who wears makeup gets the guy...yeah men don't realy know what they like ;-)

Thursday

Today was 4.51 that is a total of 22.27 so far. I have a 2.73 miles left for the week. I may surpass 25 miles this week...then again maybe not. We'll see. My husband should be home by 7 pm and I want to clean and I want to take the children swimming.

On a side note....I was drinking Slim Fast when I conceived both my children. I just like it...it's easy to grab and drink for breakfast. I've never liked eating...it just seems like a waste of time. I think Slim Fast was one reason I had strong healthy early (38 weeks each) babies....I quit drinking it once I was knew I was preggo. I needed food (seriously I nearly passed out 2 mornings in a row with my son that's when I figured out I was preggo), but the nutrients and vitamins that were built up in me really helped them grow.

Tuesday

I ran 6.36 for a total of 17.76 for the week so far. Now I will only have to run about 4 miles Thursday and 3.25 miles Friday.

Tuesday

I ran 6.10 so that is a total of 11.40 for the week so far. I have been drinking my slim fast, too. I think it helps to build those lean muscles I like so much. I can not wait to be under 120. I am hoping I am only a couple of weeks away from that!!!

Monday

I ran 5.30 miles today. I am hoping to make 25 miles again this week. I can see improvement as I push myself to run more. I am definetly seeing weight loss, yay! I am hoping to make it below 115 soon. Hopefully to 115 by my birthday. I have a shirt I want to wear for my birthday that doesn't fit right now....it should fit if I make it to 115! 9 weeks left! Once I make it down there, hoepfully I'll be sue to running this much. Then I can work on speed and maybe adding some mileage.

YIPPEE

I never thought I'd be excited about 126.8 but I am! I couldn't resist weighing...so midday I weighed myself....Yay!

Weekend

Thursday I ran 5 and 3/4 miles to make a total of 25 miles for the week. I took the weekend off and ate (and yes I had 2 glasses of wine I made it white wine...it's lower calories and easier to digest, I didn't want to be rude to our hostess)...we walked a ton and even climbed up 9 flights of stairs. We climbed down 9 flights of stairs 2 or 3 times. So surely I couldn;t have gained too much...I am NOT weighing this week. I am going to run my 25 miles and drink my slim fast and hope for the best next week :-).

Wednesday

I ran 6.15 miles which makes 19.25 total (Monday was 7.02 and Tuesday 6.08). Tomorrow 5.75 miles, I hope.

Monday & Tuesday

My husband is working in town and we are taking swim lessons, so this week is a bit crazy. I ran 7 miles Monday and 6 Tuesday. I am hoping to get 6 in today and tomorrow...so then I will take atleast Friday off. We are headed out of town for the weekend without the children!

Weekend

So I ended up taking Saturday and Sunday off from running. I probably needed it. I didn't have any Slim Fast left, so I was VERY careful to only eat about 400 calries mid day and then have a healthy supper (or atleast low calorie). Last night we ate at the children's fave place. I was a little worried, but I decided to step on the scale....I was surprised. I was 128 mid day after 2 slim fasts....YAY!!!! I lost 3 pds in a wk. Now I need to get on the tredmill and keep it up. Maybe at this rate I will be 115 by my birthday. That's 10 weeks away. The key is setting asied that hour a week to get on the tredmill. If I walk the whole time that still gives me 4 miles. If I run it it's 5-6 miles.

Before I got preggo the first time I had gained 20 pds (over a period of 2 yr I guess). I met my husband at 110 pds. I started eating chocolate donuts and chocolate milk with him for breakfast...I had never liked chocolate before that....aww new love. So, I ended up around 120 pds...not bad. Then I took a new job and was taking graduate classes. I was in my car and working ALL the time and I ganed to about 128 or 129. We got married when i weighed that much and he went ON and ON about how I should be a model on our honeymoon (again new love)....so anyway that summer I slept and ate and sletp and ate and by the fall I was like 138...I freaked out! So, I got serious. I drank slimfast, walked 4 miles a day, I was sad about being so big, but I was determined to do what it took to lose the weight. I did it. I amde it pretty skinny. I'm not sure how skinny. I quit weighing around 120. Then I got preggo....I gained the standard 35 pds and gave birth to an 8 lb 6 oz boy. By 6 weeks I was 120 again. I lost to 117 and couldn;t lose anymore...my husband told me I wasn't eating enough to lose, so I started to eat a little...turned out I was preggo AGAIN....I gained the standard 35 lbs and then gave birth to a 9 lb 7 oz baby girl. I joined Baby Bootcamp and held steady at about 123-125 for a few mths. Then all the sudden I dropped a TON of weight and I was 116. Then I lost more and I even touhed 109 at one pt (with a tomach virus). I remember thinking to myself as I was throwing up, "I can not lose any more weight..I have to stop throwing up. No worries, once I was well I gained it back and I was 112. AWWW I can't wait to be there again!!!!! It is within my grasp!!!!! I better get on that tredmill or it won't be!!!!

The best part right now is that my husband is still 40 pds over me. He had gained, too. He's 168 now :-p. I have NEVER caught him...he's always been 40 pds heavier, except when I was preggo. I got close then, but never caught him thank goodness!

Friday

I did 3.30 miles today which makes for approimately 25 miles total for the week. I say approximately, b/c I rarely do exactly 3 miles or 6 miles or whatever....I know 2 days I did 6.25 & 5 .30 and the other days I did a tad over whatever. Basically I did 25 miles for the week. Now if I can keep it up and watch my calorie intake maybe I will be little again. Right now I would be so happy to be 117 again. Tomorrow is my running day off. It will be hard to stay off, but it is necessary for my body to have that break from running. I am pretty sure I can find something to do since the husband is home and all ;-).

Yesterday

Yesterday I did 5.30 miles and only walked about 3 laps of that. We went swimming in the afternoon for a bit. I had 2 slimfasts again, 1 100 calorie granola bar and cheerios. Not the healthiest day ;-), but within my calories. I'm sure I'll have a salad for supper tonight.

I did 5 miles today...total of 16 miles this week. We played Hide and Seek which was pretty funny. Sara wants to hide with whoever is hiding...and then she gives you away by giggling. Silly girl! I had 2 slim fasts, some mints (ofcourse) tons of water, a handful of cranberries, some cheerios. I still weigh 129 mid to late day again. :-( It seems so impossible to lose weight. I hope all the hard work pays off soon. Seriously.

Yes

Yes, 131 at 5'4 is slightly overweight and for my bone size it really is I promise. I am best at 117 ish...but I prfer 110-115. My Ob/gyn says you get 5 pds for every 1 in over 5 ft. 5 ft equals 100lbs...so 4 in times 5 pds is 20...so 120 is ideal. She says from there you can vary 5lbs up or down. That means at 5'4 I can be 115-125 and be within range. So I have to get back to 120 atleast.

Tuesday

Today we swam. I had my 2 slim fasts, several mints, water, salad and yes some cheerios....I was STARVING after I did 6 miles on the tredmill. I ran 3 walked 3. I wanted to do 2 more miles, there just wasn't time. SO, I will do 3-4 miles tomorrow, hopefully in the morning. I did not weigh myself..I figured I might get depressed if I had gained. I will just try to concentrate on exercising and limiting my food intake...it will be a few months before I feel skinny again.

Monday

Okay today mid day I weighed 129...so yay that is alteaslt below 130. I slept 4 hrs, ran 5miles this morning (straight with getting off once or twice for water and a bathroom break and walked myabe 2 min). I have done my other exercises as well. I was supposed to go to the gym to ride the bike and read; however my dad cam and fixed a few things in my house. I was indesperate need of a plumber and I am extremely greatful for his handy skills! I did eat cheerios tonight, even though I had already had a salad...surely that is still within my calorie allowance.

Why the Name

Well, after having my first child I lost ALL the baby weight within 6 weeks. I made it to 117 and got pregnant with baby #2 when baby #1 was only 5 mths old. After baby #2 I lost all the weight quickly again...and by the next fall I was 110 lbs...YAY!!! Now, I can't maintain that, but it sure was fun to get there every once in a while. So maintaining 113-116 is feasible and GREAT! Well, in November 06 I got VERY sick. I kept pushing myself and eventually was forced to sit on my behind for several months. I gained up to 122 lbs. Annoying, but okay. Well, somehow I have gained up to 131 pds...AHHHHH!!!! Now, I am getting serious. I want to be what my children call a "little mommy" again. In order to do this I have to follow some strict rules I use to follow all the time...

No fries
No pizza
No junk food what so ever

Until I actually lose back down there will be NO cheating...I will drink slimfast and water. I will have a small supper.

I will walk or run 4-6 miles atleast 3 times a week and workout the other days for atleast an hour.

I will sleep only 8 hrs a day

I will walk my children to school everyday(even in summer...just to play on the playground in the morning)

No alcohol!!!!

No sweets

90 sit ups everyday

30 pushups everyday

50 squats with weights in hand everyday

50 lunges with weights in hand everyday

I posted this, because some how it seems more like a plan and a course of action if I put it on writing. My goal is to lose ATLEAST 5 pds by the 18th. I would like to think 10 pds, since I did weigh myself at night after a big supper....and there is such a thing as water weight...and I have had a bizarre rash thing that could be effecting me somehow (I am hopeful anyway).

It takes discipline to lose and maintain weight. I just have to get myself disciplined again. I went from being wiped out and un able to function, lost all sense of a schedule or discipline and turned into this, despite running atleast twice a week. Maybe I am back to normal and will be able to do it this time. Maybe by my birthday I will atleast be under 120. I can hope. I can hope that by Christmas or so I will be 115 ish and maybe next summer I will be touching 110 again. It will take discipline.

Currently I am 31 yrs old 5'4 131 pds (YUCK) Nothing from 2 yrs ago fits me :-(